Happy 1 Month!

Holden is 1 month old today. I feel like he has always been a part of me, and then at the same time feel like he just got here. He had baggy newborn clothes that I thought would never ever fit him …. never. This morning I wiped the tears from my cheeks as I shoved tiny little boots onto his feet that he will likely never be able wear, again.

Being a mom changes you for sure. Being the protector of this dependant life pushes aside selfishness, fear, and tolerance for foolishness. I have missed feeding myself without noticing because I am feeding Holden, I have squashed a wasp with my bare hand because I didn’t want it coming near my baby (I am terrified of flying things with stingers), and I refuse to buy into the gloom and doom reports on the news.

Life is good, beautiful, amazing….

-Carmen